I wanted to give up…

In 2018 my birth mom passed away just after her 42nd birthday, just after my 28th birthday and just after we reconciled our relationship. We hadn’t spoken in 3 years but days before she passed we found a way to make things right. Cancer took her far too soon…

A year later my Gram, her Mom, passed from cancer. She was my hero, my prayer warrior and my favorite person…I felt so lost without her, but she was the one who introduced me to your music and I was able to find some joy and strength again. She restored my faith before she left for her heavenly home and was able to see me baptized.
A year after that I lost a baby…it got dark in my world again but I kept listening to your music, pushing forward. I found peace in knowing my baby was reunited with my lost loved ones and was no longer in pain.
Today, my Dad is dying…we have no idea how long we have with him. Cancer is striking again. It was starting to look like the end of my strength when Casting crowns was played…
Scars In Heaven came on after I had received more bad news about my Dad and it felt like it was for me. As I am sure so many others feel, it felt like this was written for me…
I picked my head up, looked to the heavens and talked to God for awhile. I found some strength again and while it brings me to tears every time it plays, it also gives me hope. Hope that all those I love will finally be freed of their pain and hope that each day I find more strength and faith to move forward. Your music continues to restore me and I’d be lost without it…

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