After my second son was born 2 years ago I got diagnosed with postpartum depression by one of my midwives.  At first I tried brushing it off and saying how I could handle my thoughts and emotions by myself and naturally with God. After battling with it for about 2 months, my husband suggested that I see a Christian counselor and try medication.  I am so thankful that I listened to God’s voice as well as my husband’s, friends and family.  While I was struggling with PPD I would cry often, have screaming fits, dread waking up and taking care of my 2 sons, have really scary and vivid thoughts of harming my kids as well as myself, etc.  To be honest, I battled with PPD/anxiety/OCD for at least a year.  I no longer see a counselor and got off of meds within a few months of starting them.  At least 2 songs come to my mind that helped me through my dark valleys while battling with postpartum depression: “Tell Your Heart to Beat Again” by Danny Gokey (I heard this often on my way to my counseling appointments) and “Trust in You” by Lauren Daigle.  Looking back I praise God for leading me through those dark moments in my parenting and marriage.  I still have some anxiety, but it’s nothing like it was before! =)  I fully encourage women who aren’t feeling like themselves after having a baby or even when their kids are a few years old to seek help.  I had no idea what was wrong with me until my midwife pointed it out to me as well as my counselor (she specializes in postpartum depression and anxiety).  God is good!!

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